Return to the Grave - A Grave Mistake?

I am....alive? I am not sure what happened or who I am anymore..or, if I was really anyone anyway...

Everything is still groggy...I remember some details of my past but not all...

I have no idea why I am speaking in the 1st person authorial voice now...I guess it is because I am self-aware again but I only feel like half of myself for some reason...

I do....remember my own grave...I was told I had a grave or my alt told me or a ghost told me...

I remember...my home...the name Sugar Mountain sounds familiar... on Odyssey...Did I leave there too soon? All my friends were there...oh, to live on Sugar Mountain!
I think my grave was/is there but I do not remember dying there...or did I? Did I leave home because I wanted to be alone? It would be funny to know how I would feel, if I found out Sugar Mountain was actually real.

There are many other questions I will eventually need to answer on my journal such as...

Why am I wearing this mask?



I managed to recall a teleport history and find my way back to home but "home" is not how I remember it exactly..not that I remember anything exactly(!)

I do recall being very social and yet very alone...

So, I was pleasantly surprised when an avatar artist named Jo Ellesmere found me on Odyssey...Her name sounds familiar...I do not know if I ever met her as Wirxli...I know my alts have met her (sort of) and maybe my Real Life self did (maybe?)

Regardless, she seemed very friendly so I friended her immediately..friending must have been my previous incarnation's impulse...I seem to always have my finger on the friend trigger...



Above is another photo..Same idea...why am I posting it? Why do I like posting photos that all seem the same? Was my past self obsessed with posting?
I think the chat-log mentions what I mentioned already...sigh!
I am still groggy, please forgive me...hmmm...I seem to be a polite individual...ah yes, I remember...my RL self is Canadian ;-)

I met another Canadian there...I know her in the same way I know Jo...In real life (sort of)..maybe as an avatar...Her avatar name is Satvva Constantine and all I remember is that she had been to Odyssey before - perhaps to document it.



ahhh..another photo...I am fading in and out of blogging consciousness and my bio-self does not even receive those painkiller narcotics until Wednesday! This one shows me looking for Sugar Mountain...Where is it? The mountain is gone? It is just a hill now? Did I make a grave mistake being reborn? Why I am here? Why is the mountain not here? Was I dreaming? Is this paradise? The name Sugar Seville comes to mind...why?
Is she the blue cube that Jo mentions is hiding within this hill? No...no...she is...she is a person...someone I knew well...she may have been a blue cube but...no...anyway, the blue cube does not contain my grave...it is empty....why am I here? Why do I feel that I look kind of the same but not exactly the same? Why do I have recurring thoughts that I wanted to be someone else? someone more alien? did I fail?



Here is another photo..it must be important..it shows Jo's discovery of the blue cube...is this important? was my home blue?



I do not see the blue cube...I do not even know if I see myself in any cube...



I must sleep..I am not yet ready to be in this world...for some reason, I never recall being this serious...